A sudden chemistry

Buttercups

2012-03-08T06:45:00.000-08:00

Jess x.

I'm bad.

2012-02-17T02:45:00.001-08:00

Golden stairs

2012-02-09T07:11:00.000-08:00

Haircut haircut I need a haircut. Yes I have barbies on my shelf. problem?

Jess x.

ponder.

2012-02-07T02:35:00.000-08:00

Just because I'm open doesn't mean that you know me well. It just means I'm comfortable around you.

To know me well is to know how much of an insecure mess I am beneath the external.

And you, my friend, have.no.idea.

Jess x.

His eyes.

2012-01-31T06:59:00.000-08:00

#thingsilike

2012-01-30T05:25:00.000-08:00

Your reaction towards my awkward expression.

Jess x.

Fragrance wishlist; blame insomnia.

2012-01-28T09:55:00.000-08:00

Harajuku lovers G.

I've been recently obsessing over the scent of coconuts. Yes, coconuts. A while ago, I remember taking a whiff of this and I didn't like it due to the overpowering smell of coconuts and now that I'm into the scent of coconuts, I want this!

Rose by Paul Smith

Another note which I didn't exactly fancy back when I was younger. This was love at first sniff, honest. A true rose scent, it makes me want to be girly. less than 3.

Wonderstruck by Taylor Swift.

Never smelled this perfume before but the bottle itself is enough to make me want to empty my pocket. Ah, jaw dropping. Good thing is, this perfume has tones of good reviews. I know, perfumes are very personal and it depends on the body's chemistry. Screw that. Imma take the risk and even if it were to smell well..i wouldn't use the word bad,just not so good on me, at least the bottle makes good room decoration. Heh.

Betsy Johnson by Betsy Johnson

Again, another perfume which got my attention through its bottle design. I can't help it :(

Rather similar to Anna Sui's flight of fancy bottle except, not so oblong. Never smelled this one either but apparently, it smells pretty good as well. Wouldn't mind not having this but wouldn't mind having it either.

Flowerbomb by Viktor and Rolf

....Pink. Scent's pretty obvious by its name,floral. YET to smell this fragrance but the whole thing looks pretty promising. The bottle, the reviews, the notes. Freesia and rose. Sounds good to me. I know what you're thinking "you don't even know what freesia fucking smells like!"

You know what? You're right. I don't. But it sounds pretty so shoo.

Jess x.

pain.

2012-01-28T05:37:00.000-08:00

Jess x.

Quotes.

2012-01-27T07:43:00.000-08:00

We're all in the same game, just different levels. Dealing

with the same hell, just different devils.

Everything will be okay in the end. If it's not okay, it's not

the end.

This too shall pass.

For God will not give you something you can't handle.

I'm going to get a tattoo of one of these quotes..someday. Perhaps the one that I hold dearly onto the most; the fourth.

Jess x.

ps:too lazy to fix the overlapping words. xxxx

The girl in the mirror.

2012-01-26T06:21:00.000-08:00

With her big brown eyes, she stared at the mirror. Her tiny palms against it, trying to grasp unto the girl in front of her. The girl in the mirror smiled, amused by such curiosity. Her fascination towards her reflection made her oblivious to her surroundings. Oblivious to the fact the her mother was now right behind her. Mother smiled at the sight of Leah and scooped her toddler into her arms gently. "Yes,Leah" She whispered to her. "The girl in the mirror, she's beautiful isn't she?"

Right,left and over. Mother pleated Leah's mousy hair. She sat still and quiet, holding on tightly to a hand mirror in her right palm. Mother's hands swayed with such grace as she intertwined her daughter's hair. She was careful not to pull on it too tightly in fear that her daughter might feel the slightest pinch. Mother then pat Leah's head as a sign that she was done. Leah lifted the mirror to her face, her lips still straight across her square face. Mother looked at her and said

"The girl in the mirror, she's beautiful isn't she?" The girl in the mirror looked back and said nothing.

She sat on her bed quietly, brushing her long mousy hair over and over again. Knock Knock. It was her mother. "Baby, Kirk's waiting downstairs" Leah nodded and made her way to the vanity table. She felt for a tube of lipgloss and quickly smeared it on her lips. Kirk smiled at the sight of his beautiful fiancée. He kissed her gently on the forehead and let out a gentle chuckle. With his thumb, he wiped off the excess lipgloss on the side of her lips. In the car, he noticed Leah staring at the rear view mirror. A pair of brown eyes looked back at him. He then mouthed to the girl in the mirror. "You're beautiful". She kept staring. There was no response.

Her make up was done and her hair was beautifully twirled into curls. She felt like a princess. She looked like one. Mother reached for her daughter's veil and placed it gently down her face. She placed her palms onto her daughter cheeks and smiled at her. Looking into the mirror in front of them, Mother said " The girl in the mirror, she's beautiful isn't she?" Teardrops started to cascade down her cheeks. The girl in the mirror started to cry.

After hours of waiting, the door of the operating theater finally burst open. Kirk stood up and saw the hospital staff pushing both his mother-in-law and wife into opposite directions. The doctor gave Kirk a thumbs up to ensure him that the operation was a success. As Leah opened her eyes, she was greeted by a smiling Kirk. This time, she smiled back. Her lips were no longer straight. Her eyes smiled brightly. "I want to see my mother" she said. In a wheelchair, Kirk pushed his wife down the hospital hall way. Room 209. Leah gently pushed the door open and there, she saw her mother sitting up right on a hospital bed. She looked the same as always.

Mother smiled at the sound of her ward door creaking. She knew it was her daughter. Her Leah."The girl in the mirror. She's beautiful, isn't she?" Leah sat on the bed with her mother. She threw her arms around her mother's neck and started to cry. She looked at the hand mirror her mother was holding up to her face and nodded. Her mother's lips curved into a smile as she felt the nod. " I'm glad you finally get to see it with my eyes".

Jess x.

Impossible.

2012-01-24T07:12:00.000-08:00

Coloured hair is gorgeous. I don't see how it's possible for people to dislike them. Probably not for the weak of heart.I just might.

Jess x.

Fringe.

2012-01-21T08:28:00.000-08:00

I've been wearing my fringe up so often that it feels strange to have it down.

CNY's around the corner and I've got a stash of homework resembling Mount Everest.

God bless my soul. On the plus side, I don't have to wake up at 7am for the next 7 days.

I really don't want to go back to college in fear that if I ever bum into that girl, I might just break her nose.

No, i'm not mean. I'm just jealous.

Jess x.

Post high school depression.

2012-01-18T04:14:00.000-08:00

It's only the middle of the week but I'm still going to do an update since I've got time now. Well I do have work to do, but nothing due tomorrow. Yes, I never change.

Second week of college; 2 out of 4 lecturers are able to call me without having to ask for me for my name so I guess that's good, the fact that they are pretty much still grasping to remember the others. Bad thing though is, Once they know your name, they never stop calling.

I'm beginning to struggle with my subjects as well, It's a little frustrating and there's always that small urge to give up. But I know I could better, at least I think so. Fingers crossed I'll be able to get what I've learnt after Chinese New Year. I don't want to drop anything.

ALSO, I don't want to say anything offensive here (just in case certain people visit my blog. I'm not being conceited! It's called taking precautions! possibilities~) but I miss my group of friends from high school. We're definitely not like any other groups and honestly, I'm still in the process of fitting in in college. The closest that I have is Michelle and yes, I cling onto her as much as I can,like a tape worm in an intestine. Now, that's disturbing.

Sigh.

Jess x.

you disgust me. suddenly;

2012-01-15T04:24:00.000-08:00

Jess x.

College life

2012-01-13T02:36:00.000-08:00

The weekend. FINALLY.

I honestly never thought it'd come.

The week has been long, in a good way.

January intake; I wasn't sure of it at first but from what I can conclude from my first week,

What college are you at?

Inti 4 lyfe.

Do you regret not going to Taylors? Word is, the cool kids are from Taylors.

No. Refer to the gif above and secondly, I don't have anything against Taylors but I'm sick of all the stereotypes I hear about the kids there. You can't label people based on what school they're from. I'm from SMK SS17 , one of the smallest schools (non existent to some people) in Subang but I'm still cool as fuck. I insist. I used to hate my school. But it has changed me and made me what I am today and even though I've gotten myself into all sorts of mishaps, I shall be forever grateful for having the school staff shape me into the person I am today. The very vulgar, talkative,awkward person I am. ohai. Oh, I also tend to go off-topic.

Okay okay, take a chill pill. So how's the people? The lecturers?

Nothing extraordinary about the students in Inti. They look like any other college student lah. The classmates on the other hand, are quite an interesting bunch. THIS, if one of the true parts of college. You meet tones of different people with different personalities coming from different states or sometimes even different countries. For example, I have a vietnamese boy in my class who actually attended high school in the states and he came to Inti to do his AUP.

Lecturers? They're cool as! My English lecturer's a sweetheart, My Calculus teacher has an accent, and My Psychology lecturer's strict but nevertheless still cool.

Ooh, Hot guys? yes no?

Uh..not yet. haha. The rumor that college is filled with hot guys is a LIEEEEEEE~

How's lunch break?

College life is refreshing, lets just put it this way :) However, do expect loads of homework even if it's only your first week.

Jess x.

Pastels.

2012-01-11T06:16:00.000-08:00

Is college life a bed of roses?

Yes and no. More of that tomorrow. Right now, Algebra awaits me.

The kind of mess i get myself into.

Jess x.

true story bro

2012-01-07T06:57:00.000-08:00

Jess x.

Stop.

2012-01-05T01:43:00.000-08:00

Jess x.

When I heard this song, I thought of you.

2012-01-01T01:25:00.000-08:00

Tryna be the me without you
It's like driving in a car with no wheels
Flying through the sky with no wings
A needle in the eye that don't sting
When you're underwater you can't breathe
When I need to call you I can't reach
Tryna light a fire with no spark
No match and no fuse
Tryna be the me without you

Jess x.

Tumblr; putting sense into people since 07

2011-12-31T06:59:00.000-08:00

Too colourful; I just really had to.

People change,memories don't.

2011-12-29T20:57:00.000-08:00

There's others,just uncaptured. Either that, or it's obscenity.This year has been one hell of a ride but I'm grateful to have those people in the pictures to have

been there for me. I'm rather excited for this year to end actually.

Cheers to the new year,2012.

Jess x.

Drunk words are sober thoughts

2011-12-28T22:03:00.001-08:00

I've always wanted to do this, to someone.

and I've always wanted to say this to someone.

Jess x

5

2011-12-28T21:41:00.000-08:00

I remember stumbling upon the live version of this song a year or two back. Instantly fell in love with it and I was crushed when I couldn't find the song's studio version.

Finally heard the studio version of the song on radio a few days ago. *Yes I'm a little slow. Song's been out for some time.

nonetheless, it still as beautiful as the first time I heard it.

And as for all the video posts lately, It's not that I've been too lazy to blog(okay,maybe a little). I just don't know how to put my current conditions into words and you know how people say music speaks what words cannot be expressed? There you go. Plus, I'm juggling 3 blogs for now. Meh, don't ask.

Jess x.

I insist.

2011-12-28T07:05:00.000-08:00

Reasons why left handers are a lot more fun to hang out with. I insist.

Jess x.

#thingsilike

2011-12-27T00:16:00.000-08:00

Just when everyone thinks it's pretty obvious and predictable on what subject I'm going to major in, I do the unthinkable.

Sometimes,even I get surprised with the decisions I make but everything turns out well anyway.

So, fingers crossed this one turns out well as well.

Jess x.

Easy to fall, easy to break

2011-12-26T02:25:00.000-08:00

When hurt turns into anger, count to 10 and listen to the song.

Jess x.

Bong Natal.

2011-12-25T09:01:00.000-08:00

A white Christmas, I wish for a white Christmas. I'm a little late, but that's okay. There's still 11 days left.

Staying up late listening to Wiz Khalifa because I'm busy planing my wardrobe for college. I don't care what people say, I don't care what my mother thinks. I do not have anything to wear. That's too short, that's too long. That's too high, That's too inappropriate. That's too dressy, That's too house clothes looking. Eeee,Fuck it. I'm emptying forever 21 asap.

Jess x.

Then suddenly,

2011-12-14T01:50:00.000-08:00

You feel so stupid, you wanna kick Patrick out from his rock and hide under it by yourself.

Jess x.

Staring at the sink of blood and crushed veneer.

2011-12-12T00:35:00.000-08:00

Jess x.

Moving on from moving on.

2011-12-04T03:31:00.000-08:00

What's better than to be locked up in your room all alone with the stereo blasting Ed Sheeran as you drown yourself into a book of a fantasy while occasionally having to sweep your Ariel hair behind your ears since they keep insisting on curtaining your view? All that, with rain heavily pouring outside? Well, nothing I suppose.

Listening to weird genres of music, check.

Writing a couple of reports in my second language even after SPM, check.

Refraining myself from being a total bitch, half-check.

Note to self; mustn't make Starbucks a weekly routine.

Jess x.

Have it your way.

2011-12-02T08:09:00.001-08:00

Because I know, that after today, you're going to use every little thing against her as an excuse.

Half of the things you think I am, I am today because you assumed it against me.

Honestly speaking and when you think through it yourself, It's not that you can't tell. You just don't want to.

Because you're just so insecure. about what, I don't know. Because apparently, as how it looks, You rather lose me due to insecurity and ironically you're insecure about me. So tell me again, how does that work?

I'm sorry,I'm sorry that I'm happy. I'm sorry you can't be happy for me being happy. I'm sorry that each and everyone of you are giggling and betting on the matter that I'm going to be disappointed in the future anyway. I'm sorry for bringing out the worst in you and most of all, I'm sorry you had to know me.

If it makes you feel any better, I'm miserable. If you're still unhappy, would you like me to jump off a cliff? I promise you front row seats.

Feelings show.

2011-11-30T21:54:00.000-08:00

You and me, under the stars.

Jess x.

Because. I love late night calls.

2011-11-30T19:09:00.000-08:00

I'm out of sightI'm out of mindI'll do it all for you anytimeAnd out of all these things i've doneI think I love you better now

I woke up at 5 in the morning on 30th November and I slept at 4am, 1 December. All without a nap in between. :(

Jess x.

untitled;

2011-11-27T08:21:00.000-08:00

Tumblr. My haven from stupid people.

Thanksgiving.

2011-11-25T18:10:00.001-08:00

I wished Malaysia had thanksgiving. A whole other reason to buy a turkey.

I envy my brother who's NOT just only able to celebrate thanksgiving AND get turkey BUT also able to access the black Friday sales. If you're wondering what black Friday is, It's something like boxing day. If you don't know what boxing day is, then..well, google it.

For everything good that comes your way, be thankful. I've made a big fat mistake recently and I'm starting to regret. Hopefully I'd be able to fix it, soon after spm. Remember, You're never lucky, You're just always blessed.

I want ma turkey why is Christmas still such a long way from now!

Jess x.

Paradise

2011-11-25T07:45:00.000-08:00

I usually don't do coldplay but this, I really love.

It's relatable.

Jess x.

Perfection.

2011-11-23T01:54:00.000-08:00

When I think marriage, I think you. Because I think of the craziest things and I miss you.

Jess x.

Because We're lying to ourselves that we're coming home.We won't find a way home.

2011-11-18T04:19:00.000-08:00

And so I came home, looked into the mirror and smiled.

Closed my eyes, and promised myself that I'm going to forget that today ever happened.

Because I'm perfectly happy in my own lonely world.

Because I rather not know.

Because I'll always be the girl who stirs up trouble.

Because it's okay and i'll live with it.

Because sooner or later we're going to go our separate ways. So why wait? It's only a matter of time.

I have not been pushing you away. It's called being independant of you.

Don't worry, I'll take care of myself. If I don't, the others will.

Jess x.

Mood lifter

2011-11-13T06:51:00.000-08:00

After all the reading, everyone deserves a good laugh or at least a slight chuckle.Myself included.

Time to put down the books and seek peace in the faith you have in God.

Jess x.

But what do you do when your heart's in two places?

2011-11-05T04:51:00.000-07:00

So, i thought a lot about it and I realized.

I like a lot of things. I've considered about almost every course made available.

From Fashion to Biotechnology. Business, engineering and journalism. Linguistics, too.

And then you'd realised hospitality and tourism isn't in the list. Well, that's probably the only sector I can never see myself in. First off, I don't cook.I hate cooking and I don't get what's wrong with take aways. I don't care if it's unhealthy. It's heaven to my taste buds. Period.Second, I'm not exactly"HI WELCOME TO SUNSHINE INN" friendly and I don't think I'll be able to tolerate assholes if I were to be manager of a hotel(not that I will ever be one,just saying. but then again..who knows?) Obviously Hospitality and tourism's more than just that but well, you get my point.

Now where was I? Oh right.

Liking one too many things. Yes, I've considered many things but it's not something I tell people about. Problem is, I like so many things, I'm not exactly sure about what I love. Back to square one. Yay.

And to those who aren't given any options to choose what they want to do in the future, just think of it this way. At least you already have a rough idea about what you're getting into. Unlike me. I'm drowned with countless of options and picking one isn't easy. It depends on how you look at it, but that's just how I see it.

Shall bang my head on the door now. Cause It's fun and I feel shitty. Good evening m'lovellies.

Jess x.

turned. on.off.

2011-11-01T08:32:00.000-07:00

It’s 5 o’ clock in the morning
Conversation got boring
You said you’d go into bed soon
So I snuck up to your bedroom
And I thought I’d just wait there

5 o' clock.

Jess x.

2011-10-18T01:14:00.000-07:00

I got :

Loyal

Dramatic

Honest

Sweet

Today, I experienced fun like I never had before with a different group of friends. Change is good once in a while.

Jess x.

He's so gorgeous,it hurts.

2011-10-11T23:01:00.000-07:00

Belgium,anyone?

There's nothing much to update about.Trial results were satisfactory. Could have been better, Could have been worse. SO i'm not complaining. and if there's anyone I need to thank, it's God.

Amen!

Current favorite word: Swag

Jess x.

Keep calm and carry on.

2011-10-10T07:49:00.000-07:00

Calm. Starbucks.Cute boys.Shopping.Ice cream.

Leggo.

Jess x.

He just doesn't know it.yet.

2011-10-05T19:09:00.001-07:00

I just had to.

Jess x.

2011-10-04T23:22:00.001-07:00

Don't bash a girl just because she wears make up because even with make up on, you still might not look half as pretty as she does

word.

Jess x.

Tonight-Lykke Li

2011-10-03T23:39:00.000-07:00

Just because I accept it, it doesn't mean I agree with you. It means I respect you.

Just because I moved on, it doesn't mean I've ever stopped loving you. It just means things didn't go as expected.

Just because I don't deny what I've done, it doesn't mean I'm alright with it. It just means I've learnt how to accept that shit happens and life moves on.

Just because I talk and laugh with you, it doesn't mean you're making me smile. It just means I'm holding onto everything that's breaking me inside because I don't want us to fight.

Just because I don't talk about my religion doesn't mean I don't care. It just means I'm not comfortable with you.

clarifications, clarifications. 2 more months.

As much as it breaks me to count down the days, it makes me stronger and it reminds me that life just doesn't stop here.

AND I'm not depressed. I'm just inspired.

Jess x.

yes but no.

2011-10-01T20:57:00.000-07:00

http://yes-butno.tumblr.com/

I'd reblog everything on here if I could. For every post I read on here, I can't help but go, "so true." Well, for most of them, at least.

Jess x.

2011-09-30T09:06:00.001-07:00

Depressed.

2011-09-22T08:02:00.001-07:00

I specifically went to Pyramid for forever 21 to get my letterman jacket.

but NO. It just HAD to run out of stock.

not only in the stores, BUT online too.

I'm just feeling OVER the moon right now.

GAHH.

Jess x.

Because.

2011-09-18T03:40:00.001-07:00

If there's too much to study, I panic.

If there's nothing else to study, I panic

If I'm too stressed up, I panic.

If I don't feel stressed up, I panic even more.(and then, I find a way to stress myself up)

....and if all else fails, you continue panicking.

Jess x.

3 months.

2011-09-15T07:49:00.000-07:00

its just 3 months Jess. You can do this. 3 months and you're off to a brand new start with brand new people. Hold on.Tight.

Times where I just can't wait to get over this. Reasons. Reasons not worth my time but reasons, I can't help it.

Jess x.

Take it to the Hollywood sign.

2011-09-13T23:10:00.000-07:00

Tumblr is ohlalala addictive.

I have this sudden urge to omegle...and I don't know why....

ciao bella!

Jess x.

For the first time.

2011-08-04T07:19:00.000-07:00

I know I know, I'm not suppose to be on blogger but this one, I can't content.
Every time I look at this picture, I smile.
One, because this random Australian boy who goes by the name of Paul is a total cutie.
Two, because his eyes are so lighted up by the sight of us both, it's adorable.

It's true when they say great things can't be rushed.

We're smiling but we're close to tears,
Even after all these years,
We just now got the feeling that we're meeting for the first time.

Jess x.

Apple.

2011-07-03T03:46:00.000-07:00

Hello :)
Seeing that I'm becoming too personal, I've currently switched to old school diary writing.
I'll be taking a break.
I'm not sure when I'll return but I'm definitely not putting my blogging days behind.

Jess x.

Too much.

2011-06-09T06:41:00.000-07:00

I...

Worry too much.
Stress myself up too much.
Think too much.
and expect too much.

Jess x.

Twenties.

2011-06-02T07:38:00.000-07:00

After two months, I've finally gotten my hands on a book, Twenties Girl by the wonderful Sophie Kinsella. This was such a good read, I simply couldn't put it down till the end. The whole book makes me want to get myself a flapper dress and do the Charleston right now. No, really.

Enough about the book. What else?
Oh right, June already. Four more months. Just four. The thought of leaving high school sucks,a lot. As much as I'm excited to try out this whole college life thing, I don't think I'm ready to leave my high school life just yet. Four months isn't long. sigh. May I be able to make the best memories of my life during this four months then. Oh gosh Jess, you're being too dramatic.

Jess x.

BR

2011-05-31T05:03:00.000-07:00

Baskin Robbins is heaven in your mouth <3

I love soap and glory!Hi.

Jess x.

acorn.

2011-05-28T05:28:00.000-07:00

Are you always like this?
When things don't go your way, you sulk. You sulk and you whine.
It simply has to go your way and not another. If it doesn't, you become a total bitch, without you even realizing it.
Just so you know, life isn't always about having it your way. Face it and stfu already.

I've learned that. So why can't you?

All smiles.

2011-05-27T07:14:00.000-07:00

Good evening.

So it's like this. I started off my holidays watching the season finale of pretty little liars and the next season won't be aired until this upcoming June/July. Gossip girl also just recently had their mini finale/season finale so I'm pretty much left with nothing else to watch :( great.

Keegan Allen who plays Toby and Tyler Blackburn who plays Caleb on pretty little liars are such hotties. I love!

Jess x.

OVER!

2011-05-26T07:25:00.000-07:00

Mid term exams are finally OVER!
After 3 agonizing weeks, I can finally go a day without touching a text book.
As exhausting as it is, I made it through with God's grace so praise the lord.

NOW!
to think over my future. Yes, my future after high school. What I would want to do after high school, is something no one, not even my parents would understand. A friend was telling me today as we were walking that she "understood" why I wanted to take that particular path and of course all I did was merely agreed although deep inside me,I knew she didn't get me,at all. It's more than just the money, the glam and the fun. It's something probably only someone with the same passion would understand and hopefully, maybe in a year or two, I'd find that person. But for now, I'm going to stick to doing my own personal research and keeping all the excitement to myself.

Jess x.

One more week.

2011-05-20T03:12:00.000-07:00

Shay Mitchell who plays Emily Fields on Pretty Little Liars is gorgeous!
Now that, I'd turn gay for.

I'm feeling so relieved after Biology and Physics. They're not entirely over, but paper 3's a lot less stressful. Not a piece of cake, just less stressful. One more week and I'm done. At least for the time being. I'm sick of doing 6 hours a day. I get so stressed up, the only way to feel better is to cry.

Can't wait for the holidays. Can't wait to go on a shopping spree. Can't wait to go back to sleeping at 2 in the morning.

Jess x.

Let me be the gravity to your universe.

2011-05-02T08:06:00.001-07:00

Jess x.

Deprived.

2011-04-24T04:20:00.000-07:00

The past week has been agonizing without the internet. The only form of entertainment I had was television, excluding my cell phone of course.

The internet finally just got fixed earlier this afternoon so here I am, sitting in front of the screen, doing nothing,typing this.

Wanna know what I hate? Being put down. Being told the reachable can be reached, but not by you. Because you're this and not that.You need to settle for something less.

Well, I'm not. I'm not going to settle for anything "less".

Oh and Happy Easter everyone :)
Pardon the monologue.

Jess x.

Seafield's 15th International Understanding day.

2011-04-09T06:15:00.000-07:00

Another last minute decision added to the collection.
I only went for one reason but that's for me to know and for you to find out.
I feel sleepy *yawn

Jess x.

Because I like camwhoring at 7 in the morning

2011-04-08T06:33:00.000-07:00

And on your left, you will see countless of bottles filled with supplements and no, I am not flexing.

No, I'm not naive nor oblivious.I just put on a good act.
Yes, I'm totally aware of what's going on.
I'm trying to be nice.
and I don't like limits being pushed,just so you know.
Be nice. I'll promise to return the favor.
Don't worry, I'm not as judgmental as I used to be. I have my mess ups as well.

Jess x.

ertswhile

2011-04-06T02:44:00.000-07:00

When it comes to you,it can only be about a girl you don't like or a guy you like.

When I saw this text message on my phone, I couldn't help but smile.

Jess x.

Photo day

2011-04-05T01:45:00.000-07:00

Photo day was fun. Camwhored like there was no tomorrow and we managed to get Audrey into the class photo without having to fly her back ;) credits to Ricky & Zhu en* for the picture.

FUNERAL MARCH!

Just joking. ^_^

Jess x.

scribbles on my right wrist only because I'm a left hander.

2011-04-01T08:23:00.000-07:00

FUN FUN FUN
PHOTO DAY ON MONDAY!EXCITED!

screw photobucket.

Jess x.

Espadrilles

2011-03-28T07:15:00.000-07:00

When I see yellow, I think happy.
I'm happy because my last weekend has been rather productive. Most productive in the year,actually.
I managed to:

Complete most of my tuition homework
Finish a new book and start off with another one
Attend youth ministry and mass
do my cardio workout!
Attend yoga session(don't ask )
have a wonderful bonding session with mother and brother
watch social network & Shanghai(Gong Li is sooo pretty)
satisfy my craving for honeydew sago
WAKE UP IN TIME FOR BREAKFAST!

Yes, I barely do eat breakfast. Let it be a weekend or a weekday, it's doesn't matter. I'm always late.

May this week be kind to me. Please!
Currently contemplating on whether or not I should attend Seafield's IU. Without Xing, I'm going to be such an Anti-social. Hm.

Currently obsessed with espadrilles.
But Jessica, You've got no more money.
Damn it.

Jess x.

-

2011-03-26T07:52:00.000-07:00

My words will only calm you.

2011-03-23T03:17:00.000-07:00

SO!

I got home from school today and while I was having my lunch, mother handed me a plastic bag. A m.a.c bag,and before I could even open it, I was already screaming in my heart. She got me this lipstick I've been longing for for weeks. Yes, I'm so happy I could die. Thank you mummy!

The weather's been rather favorable lately and school's good,so far. I'm pretty contented with my results. Contented,not happy but I can't deny that I'm glad I've not fallen any lower than a B so fingers crossed my last paper wouldn't do the honor of free falling to a C.

To those who scored straights for SPM, congratulations! To those who didn't, You did your best and that's all that matters. A single sheet of paper isn't going to define you for the rest of your life. *and this statement doesn't apply to me because I'm a hypocrite. teehee

Jess x.

Confirmation;class of 2011

2011-03-20T07:44:00.000-07:00

After thirteen years, I'm finally confirmed.
Amen :)

Jess x.

Seemingly beautiful seemingly dirty rich,you are.

2011-03-19T07:23:00.000-07:00

Besides over exhausting my allowance today, I managed to get up in time for breakfast.
I'm obsessed with tulle,
and the holidays pretty much ended yesterday.
Weekends don't count.Well,to me at least.
Not looking forward to waking up early,not looking forward to getting my papers back.
Boombada!

Jess x.

Pastel.

2011-03-18T02:32:00.000-07:00

About a boy whom I love so much.
It shatters me just to see him struggle.
Even when I hate him, I love him.
He's special to me, you see.
His eyes so bright like the stars in the sky and his laugh,so delicate.
He's annoying as hell and he could be such a pain.
But that's what I love about him most.
And nothing could change that, not even a blue-eyed beau.

I love you,but in a different way. I love you,forever.

Jess x.

Confirmation camp 2011

2011-03-14T07:26:00.001-07:00

Hello!

Monthly test was official over last Friday! The fact that it's over makes me extremely happy.But it was only then when I realised that this was just the end of the beginning and there's more to come. GAH. Kill me.

Right after school, I came back to pack my things. Yes, right after school, I had camp. Confirmation camp to be more precise and honestly, I was so reluctant to go at that point of time.If it wasn't for camp, I'd be able to spend the rest of my day relaxing at home or hanging out with friends. But no, I had to attend.church camp.

The bus left at 5 and we got stuck in a jam for at least an hour and a half. Thank goodness for the company of friends otherwise I'd probably die of boredom. We stayed at the archdiocese pastoral center which is located in the heart of town. The view at night was breathtaking! Oh right, we had aircond this time too :D

We had the same speakers from our camp back in form 3 with a few new ones as well. 3 days worth of sessions with them was such a privilege. From their testimonies to their talks. Just one word,mindblowing. The music ministry was absolutely AMAZING. The worship leader's voice was sooo smooth. Absolutely beautiful, I wish I had her voice. We share the same name though :D *nudge

The facilitators were wonderful, friendly and funny. I should have gotten a picture with them :(
Hanging out with Mel,Chermaine, Rachel, Amylia and Joanne was crazy fun.Loved the camwhoring sessions especially on the second night/early early morning where I started doing the bangrah dance with Sean on the balcony. The food? OH MY GOODNESS THE FOOOODDD.Many of those who are close to me would know I hate two things when it comes to food. One, Curry. I cannot stand curry. Two, Vegetables. They're so green, they look like mould.
The funny thing was, camp food served curry and vegetables most of the time and I still ate like a pig(compared to mel and chermaine who ate like sick people!:( ) Food was at least served 4 to 5 times a day. Oh the heavenly food.

My very unsexy Chermaine who for the past 3 days, had an unhealthy habit of repeating the word 'sexy'. She's so crazy, I love her!

Melly Belly!Love her to bitsss. I can tell her just about anything. She's so crazy she randomly comes into the room and starts singing about the lights on the ceiling.

Menara Kl and KLCC looks so pretty at night.

The komuter would pass by every 10 minutes or so from the back. Noise pollution.

I'm lacking a lot of pictures due to the fact that facebook's being slow. No one's uploaded any pictures yet so I guess I've ought to wait.

It's so sad to think that after 12 years of attending sunday school, it's finally going to end.
I'm going to miss waking up early just so I can choose a nice outfit to wear to sunday school.
I'm going to miss dreading the fact I have to go to sunday school.
I'm going to miss texting mel if she's coming to sunday school
I'm going to miss being splited up into groups.
I'm going to miss waking up early in camp just to fight for the showers
I'm going to miss the comfort of being with the same group of people who understands you.
I'm going to miss. Everything and everyone.

As happy as I am to be confirmed this upcoming Sunday, I don't want to. I don't want to leave Sunday school :( sigh.

Okay,happy thoughts.

Excited for this Sunday.So proud that I'm finally going to be a confirmed Catholic!

More pictures to come=D

Jess x.

Because christianity's the most beautiful religion known to mankind.

2011-03-13T07:39:00.001-07:00

Because I believe.
Next up, confirmation camp.

Jess x.

Mother says I would break my toes one day.

2011-02-28T06:05:00.003-08:00

Jess x.

A falling star fell from your heart and landed in my eyes I screamed aloud, as it tore through them, and now it's left me blind

2011-02-14T07:57:00.000-08:00

It's only 2 more weeks and There goes February. I've been rather busy with my project and other stuff here and there so I apologize for neglecting my blog.

I'm too exhausted to think of words. These pictures basically show you what happens behind the scene, before we give the items out on the 14th of February.

I never felt this tired on Valentines day. So yep, It required a lot of work and it's not exactly fun working with bundles of un-dethroned roses.

To those who came;
Ricky
Ansley
Yi Xuan
Ying Yee
Xin Xing
Jayanthi
Chia Hwei
Beatrice
Nicole
Nigel
Chantal
Darrien
Sonia
Siang Siang
Anissa
Nikita
Adriana
Annesha
Esther
Zhu En
Michelle

Thank you so much for helping out :)

Biggest thanks goes out to my mum and dad who've helped and supported me the whole time,much love.

I hope you guys enjoy the cupcakes and flowers and I apologize for all the mix ups,really.

What a week.

Love,Jess.

To the left.

2011-01-29T05:57:00.000-08:00

Hello world!

How was your week?
Mine was tiring. In fact, the most tiring week so far for this year.
The only day off I had was Thursday where I was able to take a nice afternoon nap.
Other days, I either had something going on or I just had to go back to school to take more orders.

The annual interact district meeting was last Wednesday. Just as expected, It got boring after the first 20 minutes or so. Then again, I only went because I like wearing my uniform. WHAT? I like wearing skinny ties. It makes me feel sexy. HAHA. okay, I'm just kidding.

On Friday, There was cross country a.k.a seventeenian run. Esther's a running beast and she managed to get top 10. Green house pride!! Honestly, I'm pretty proud of myself for taking the initiative to at least run on my last year.The others did great as well so kudos to all my 3 lovelies ( and half way during the race I kena tergoda but that's a different story)

After cross country, there was CF. We stunk up the whole room. Poor room. CF wrapped up around 2.30pm and we headed over to silva's at ss15 for lunch after that. Lunch was pretty good. Can be considered as bonding session among cf members la.hahaha.

Later on, I went to the park with Annesha, Ricky and Esther. (Yes, my Friday just never seem to end) Initially, we were suppose to do a count on the ordered flowers, but everyone started to pedo bear around and we started talking to random children. Park of innocence.

One more thing, The order phase is finally over! To my relief, this year's sales were pretty good and thankfully, I planned ahead. From what I've heard, some school's only started taking orders this week and next week a holiday. So for that, Thank you God!

15 bouquets this year! How crazy is that?

I'm extremely excited at the same time a little scared.
So far, everything's going as planned and hopefully nothing goes wrong till after February 14.
Thank you to those who have ordered. You have no idea how much it means to me :)

Jess x.

I can't help but smile every time I look at you.

2011-01-23T04:30:00.000-08:00

Daphne got herself a DSLR and brought it to school on Wednesday. So this happened.

And on Friday, I went back to school to take orders for Friendship day. Big thanks to Ricky and Xing for accompanying me. Unfortunately for Xing, she had tuition in the evening so she left early while Ricky and I went to the park later on.

And this was the day where I was in uniform for 12 straight hours.

Jess x.

P.S I do not have a clue about the obese sized pictures. I'm pretty sure I set it to small.

Bottled happiness

2011-01-18T05:33:00.000-08:00

You smile each day and laugh at everything I say,
I know you love me every moment,every minute, every day.
But I know there are times where you'd like to wish me away.
I don't blame you and I understand.
But please don't go too harsh on me.
I try my best as you can see
To avoid anything bad between you and me.
Things aren't easy on my side either
The longer I take, it just gets deeper.
So give it time, I'll fix it fast.
I won't just wait for time to past.
I love you this much, I want you to know.
Even at times like this, I won't just let us go.

Jess x.

And two weeks later

2011-01-14T06:59:00.000-08:00

I am still alive.

Ever since school started, I've barely had time for fun. I spend minimal time on both TV and PC, it's depressing. 4 out of 5 days, I have tuition after school. Mount Everest is nothing compared to the pile of homework I'm given. Correcting my paperwork for interact day after day after day after DAY. Not to forget my never ending craving for food. No, I'm not pregnant.

Anyhow, I was at Penang last weekend to attend a wedding. It was like a 2 day feast marathon. Nothing much I'd blog about but I did encounter really nice white people. I'm not racist. Im just facinated by them. Out of everyone, I was probably the most socially awkward one.

Oh and I've been reading a lot lately.

Jess x.

cross my heart.

2011-01-02T06:30:00.000-08:00

I think guys who wear fedoras are insanely sexy.

Back to school tomorrow. Senior year, here I come.

Jess x.

It's funny how someone can remember things about you which you don't even remember yourself.

2010-12-31T03:58:00.000-08:00

So I pretty much went all out on my last week of 2010.
Okay, maybe not all out but I didn't exactly stayed home and rot either.
Xing slept over on Monday and she fell asleep while I was telling her stories. I hate her.
On Tuesday, we(Xing and I) went to Mydin and later on in the evening, we went to the park and met up withAnnesha.
I don't remember what I did on Wednesday.
Yesterday I went over to both Annesha and Xing's house and ealier this morning,I went to KLCC and I got myself two books.

Yeah, that's pretty much it.

can you be my 2011 date tonight?
hahah sure<3

HAPPY NEW YEAR :)

Jess x.

Pie.

2010-12-28T03:57:00.000-08:00

I've been watching way too many movies in a week.

Jess x.

Possum.

2010-12-26T02:07:00.000-08:00

Awesome is greater than cool, wikad, sick, super, kick-ass, and mega put together.

Jess x.

all that glitters is not gold.

2010-12-24T22:42:00.000-08:00

Have a blessed merry Christmas :)

Jess x.

Singapore like you've never seen it before.

2010-12-23T21:04:00.000-08:00

Hola,

So I'm going to blog about this before I run out of blogging mood again. (yes, blogging mood!)

I don't know if it's just me, but Singapore seemed pretty fantastic this time when I got around. Things changed a lot over the past 3 years. In a good way. A very good way.

I was in Singapore for four days together with my mum, aunts and cousins. We left on a Friday morning and got there by late afternoon. We checked in studio M after that and headed down to China town for dinner. Studio M is the bomb! It's so fancy and white and fancy! Where was I? Right, China town. The traffic was crazy jammed so It took us at least 40 minutes to get there.
Initially we were suppose to eat at this mall building thingy but all of us were just so hungry, we decided to eat at the shop nearest to us and It was Korean. My first Korean meal! cooked by real Korean people! -insert bimbotic face here- We got back to the hotel around 10 and I started web camming with retards( Kah Tsin and Xin Xing) until I got too tired and fell almost half asleep on the web cam. So that pretty much sums up the first day. Oh and there was this insanely cute bell boy who looked lee homish.

The next morning, I got up at 6.50 am. YES! JESSICA HWANG WOKE UP AT 6.50! But only because it was so fracking damn it cold that I had to wake up in the middle of my sleep twice to pull my blanket up. You see, my cousin set the air cond at 18 degrees thinking she'd be able to wake up to shut it off once it got too cold but I guess that never happen since I had to wake up at 6.50 and increase the temperature all the way to 30. Hoho. Anyway, this time we headed over to Orchard, the centre of all heavenly happiness. Okay, so It wasn't that great but it sure beats shopping in Sunway Pyramid or Mid valley! Ion was huge! like "I don't know where to start!" huge. I decided to shop by my own while my other relatives and mum stayed for lunch. Navigating around Singapore on my own was actually fun! Oh, and the Sephora here is gigantic and most of the make up artists are ah kuas. Nothing against them, just saying. Speaking of which, Sephora will be opening in BB in 2011. Woot! Oh dang. Where was I at again? by my own.
So on my way back from the Clarke Quay Station, I stumbled upon a Charles and Keith store and ended up getting myself a new wallet :))) Once at the hotel, I decided to go down to the cafe for tea since I skipped both breakfast and lunch. While waiting for the lift, I bumped into the cutest guy with blue eyes. It was a magical moment (HAHA) but that's a different story. After eating I went back up to the room and fell asleep until 8.30pm. I woke up, and decided to take a walk down to Clarke Quay and got myself a dress and a jumpsuit, all for less than $50. How awesome is that?

On Sunday, I was intially suppose to go to Universal Studios but I ended up shopping in Vivo City instead. I got bored pretty fast and decided to go back to Orchard where I ended up at Atrium, a different mall which I had no idea existed until then. I like the Wastons here, They carry so many different products which isn't avaible back in Malaysia. Anyway, I got caught up at a another Charles and Keith store here again and this time I got myself a pair of heels! Finally!
Later on in the afternoon, I met up with dad who came down to Singapore on that same day itself and we had dinner at an Italian restaurant nearby. Another thing that I love about Singapore(besides the fact that the guys here are delicious), is that there are dogs almost everywhere. In restaurants, near the river bank, in the malls.

Monday was my last day and I was suppose to meet up with Daphne Lim which ended up being a failed plan since she woke up late :( I spent the first half of my day in Plaza Singapura with my parents and they were being awfully generous, allowing me to get another pair of heels eventhough I've already spent over the budget I was given. So yeah, that's pretty much it. After that I got on the bus and was back in Subang by 9.

Excuse me for being very wordy this time around. :D
And If there's any mistakes, excuse that as well since I'm too lazy to check.

Christmas eve love <3.

Jess x.

Umbrellas.

2010-12-21T23:53:00.000-08:00

My first boyfriend was part german ;)
HAHAHA.

Jess x.

You're like my favourite song the radio, I could listen to you all day.

2010-12-21T02:32:00.000-08:00

I'm still feeling lazy and in no mood to blog about my Singapore trip yet. This is just a short post about what I got in the mail a few days ago while I was away.

My lomo camera =D

I'll probably drag someone out one of these days to test this baby out. *does crazy chicken dance*.

I'm so hungry.

Jess x.

we living like we hit the jackpot.

2010-12-20T22:06:00.000-08:00

Singapore was fantastic! There's so many dogs around! double fantastic!

Jess x.

Late night

2010-12-17T15:30:00.000-08:00

So for those of you who have me on msn, you'd know I don't own a webcam. But since I'm currently using a netbook here,it has an in built webcam!

Last night was fun with Kah Tsin and Xing.It felt so nice talking to Kah Tsin again, realising how much I miss him so much. Xing on the other hand, wouldn't let go of me so I ended up falling asleep on web cam. =P

There's a cute bell boy in the hotel!

I think I better go before I say anything else stupid.

with love from Singapore,

Jess x.

And that is what I call faith!,I said.

2010-12-13T05:56:00.000-08:00

SO!

It's prom season! Everyone's confirming their attendance for prom on facebook, prom dresses are being featured in magazines and well, you know the rest.

This post is just for the fun of it. Since I'm pretty bored and got nothing to do, might as well.

What I'd wear to prom if I were to be given an unlimited budget(ha, unlimited):

This Jovani Prom Dress is outstandingly gorgeous gorgeous gorgeous. Now, who wouldn't want to take me to prom in a dress like that? ;)

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

I really can't think of words now. Oh I need my chocolate banana sandwich.

Jess x.

Everybody says I think too much.

2010-12-12T07:30:00.000-08:00

Jess x.

too hot for words.

2010-12-05T22:40:00.000-08:00

By far the sexiest German boy on Earth. ♥

Jess x.

Whazitooya.

2010-12-05T05:35:00.000-08:00

When I get angry, I stuff myself with br,boost and pastries.
I get angry very often so now you know why I'm always lacking money.

Jess x.

Playlist.

2010-12-03T22:24:00.000-08:00

Space Bound-Eminem
Pretty Girl Rock-Keri Hilson
Pray-Justin Bieber
Freshmen-Verve Pipe
If this was a movie-Taylor Swift
She ain't you-Bei Maejor
By Chance-J.R.A
May I-Trading Yesterday
Thing for you-Hinder
Who Is-Bruno Mars

Jess x.

25.

2010-12-01T20:10:00.000-08:00

What I'm about to do is actually an overdue tag which was supposed to be done on Facebook months ago. But since I didn't know how to post notes on facebook, I ignored it. So here you go, 25 random facts about me.

I don't know how to post notes on facebook.
I'm left handed.
I started wearing glasses when I was 9 and I started with contacts when I was 14.
I do not fancy the colour pink on anything other than a cell phone.
My favourite subject is History.
I am blunt,shallow and very straightforward.
I spent the first year of my life in France as my dad was working there.
the second toe of my left foot is slightly bent and it enables me to stand on my toes/toe knuckles.
I failed math thrice back in standard 4.
I am a banana. I cannot speak Chinese.
I watch Spongebob everyday without fail.
I talk to myself a lot when I'm alone in my room.
When I was younger, I used to be extremely hot headed. I think I'm better now. I think.
I've always wanted to learn classical ballet.
I used to dislike SMK ss17 back in form 1. I swore that right after PMR, I would immediately shift out to another school . As the years passed, I came to realization that the reasons that made me want to shift away only made me wanna stay more.
I love love love Hazelnut ice cream.
I am afraid of heights.
When in school, I can never stand a messy desk. Even when Annesha messes up her desk, I would automatically clean hers and put her books away for her. But when it comes to my own study desk at home, you can barely see the desk surface.
My parents are my best friends. I tell them everything and anything.
I take many things and many people for granted.
I don't do homework. (and I usually get away with it ;))
My school shoes are a size four.
I can play the piano.
I have a bad habit of always misplacing my stuff. Especially my house keys.
There was once where I came back late from supper with friends and I got locked out of the house and I had to climb over the gate in a skirt.

This wasn't as easy as I thought it would be. meh.

Jess x.

If we ever meet again.

2010-11-30T00:19:00.000-08:00

Hello freaky people of the world.

I think my brain has stopped working. (Then again, when has it never)

I can't do math/add math without feeling sleepy 10 minutes later.

Yesterday was technically the last time I'd be going out with Annesha for the year since she'd be leaving for India this upcoming Saturday and won't be back till 2011. (I think.)

This picture is pretty disgusting but I'm not going to point it out. I said disgusting,not dirty. and that's a W, just an FYI for people out there who can't think.

Also, I finally got myself an 88 palette which I've been longing for for almost a yearrr.
It's so pretty =') My self gifted belated birthday present.

Belated birthday present from Jessica to Jessica. I'm a sad soul.

Random photo of the day:

Back in August; Watching the premiere of MTV worldstage at Esther's house.

Jess x.